Wednesday, June 22, 2011
I guess friendships are more important, as they can last a lifetime. My friendship with you, my friendship with them. I hope it's all the same :)
Today @ 12:26 PM
Thursday, June 2, 2011
J
Hi,
I'm back to blogging... because I guess I always need a space to write my thoughts out. Besides, I have left this space vacant for far too long, and so I doubt anybody will still bother to visit here. And that made me feel even more assured, as I can write out my thoughts here without anyone criticizing about it. You have no idea how scary the world is out there.
School has been busy. What's new right? School has never been free for one single day. I am in year 3 now, my final year. Senior year. I told myself I will work hard this last semester, but I guess, I am going to screw it up already. Things have taken a twist recently. Things have changed. I'm back to a solitary life. It's affecting me pretty much. I can't seem to find the focus I used to had, can't seem to find the motivation I used to possess anymore. I fear, that I will really screw everything up. And that's gonna be even more demoralizing for me. I never did liked the Year 2010. Because this is the year where everything changes... Maybe everything changed over the months, rather than overnight. I wished I had made things right from the beginning, really. Then at least, things will be different now. Things will be positive now.
Why is it always like this for me? When I don't intend to put in my 100% effort, things will never gonna work out and I ended up hurting people. But when I do finally put in my 100% effort, things still don't work out, and I ended up getting hurt. So what am I supposed to do? This time round, it affects me so much more than ever before. I thought we were. But I know for things to come to this stage, I hold the most responsibility. Guess humans are forever like that, learning things through the hard way, knowing the importance of something after it's gone. But it's all too late to regret. But I still regret. Still regretted not setting things right from the start.
Take care.
Today @ 12:18 AM
